yesterday was oblivious to the treats of future banquets we'll be sitting at consuming our friendship no wine is sweet enough to mend our disappoinment a certainty to set against all doubts to antidote the fear of missing out to kill the urge to be a part at any cost and fall apart coming home to delirium did we still share the minimum? do we still share a minimum? do we still share a minimum? no remorse and no excuses just the silence where we fell never make a choice against yourself a certainty to set against all doubts to antidote the fear of missing out to kill the urge to be a part at any cost and fall apart a certainty to set against all doubts to antidote the fear of missing out to kill the urge to be a part at any cost and fall apart i'm no traitor, but i feel like one

here's the doctrine: an angry heart will follow anything as long as bitterness remains its king empty talk becomes so meaningful when you just wanna hear it, unable to clear it dancing on the edge of sanity picking fights over every profanity i can't take no more dancing on the edge of sanity drowning in sorrow, yearning for clarity i can't take no more this is not a test warnings were neglected and all the voices of the past keep calling, never gone the circle keeps repeating and on and on and on dancing on the edge of sanity picking fights over every profanity i can't take no more dancing on the edge of sanity drowning in sorrow, yearning for clarity i can't take no more fears awaken tears unshed truths are broken with the weight on our chest we wont let it rest

worrying about the future centering my problems around the past feeling sorry for leaving all the hours they won't last sometimes all things just fall apart but we can make it from the start we gonna walk to a place that we call home listening to music all day long crashing all the bars as we don't care not staying at home just go somewhere meeting in my room to play rpgs failing in sports smashing our knees these things will always touch my heart sometimes all things just fall apart but we can make it from the start with a glimpse of hope an courage left we'll meet again another day sometimes all things just fall apart if you could find me here before i disappear you'll ease the pain of memory decay stand at my grave between good river and the lakes seems like we've never been away

i shipped out with no land sight i enlisted to a war i saw coming i didn't wanna fight you took my hands into your hands, looked into my eyes said i'm proud of you even though you keep failing, i see how hard you tried some of us started with a need to achive i saw many of us defeated, i just never thought it would be me stopped counting my losses keep dying at night and i keep myself from writing letters home, as a proof i'm still alive as a proof i'm still alive i'm wasting my time and when you break it's entirely won't see it coming and then and then you pick up the pieces and start all over again and then you notice the distance and then you learn to embrace find yourself a new starting line like the last time set it up the pace and it should feel like waking up i fail to recognize all my achievements thinking that i'm never enough never enough to let go so all my days will stay the same i let all that i did spell out my true name this should feel like waking up